it’s funny how some things are able to stay alive in my consciousness. it never seems to be something i want echoing in my head so often, but that’s not really how it works, is it? in the end, you convince it to fade and when it really has disappeared, something will trigger your memory. it all comes flooding back. there is a sense of bitter sweetness, a spark of irrational hope. then it’s like...
yep basically. feel like death. oh and accounting can go die.
remembered i had a blogspot before i started using tumblr… have been reading old posts for the past half hour. MAN I WROTE GOOD STUFF. i don’t really remember where it all came from, but even though i was a mess back then, i wrote with a sense of clarity and direction. it’s weird. i can’t describe it. WHAT HAPPENED. omg. wish i could write like that again. *sob* ...
citizen cope ft. carlos santana // these feelings...
you still work yourself under my skin.
Oh Lord You’ve searched me You know my way Even when I fail You I know...– At the Cross - Hillsong
off to richmond...
uncle’s flight comes in at 8PM. going for groceries and dinner first with the fam. (:
jujublah asked: are u going to church this week? i forgot phone at school.
sigh. sitting here wishing, imagining how ecstatic i would be if classes are canceled. should have snowed more last night! *bitter* i only have one mandatory tutorial to go to today and i diiiislike it. a lot. well i better get going. boo.
i told you so.
issues: adjusting to schedule.
i get super unproductive and anxious when i don’t have a set schedule. i’m not talking lecture/tutorial schedule but my entire school week… from when i’m going to study in library or at home (which has proven to be incredibly ineffective… O_o). i guess i have to know what i’m going to study and where i’m going to be every hour of the school week? talk...
in class. “uh…… UHHHH… uuuuuuuuh…” basically.
oh baby… i believe colors will change for everyone– jenny suk - no good ♪
when your friend says a guy is staring at you...
Expectation: Reality: AHAHAHA OMG KAM.
i looooove being home. yayay.
1) doing online accounting assignment. 3 down, 2 to go. 2) i only saved ~$70 buying secondhand textbooks because access codes are mandatory and $_$… i thought i’d save more. damn. 3) been going to bed really late these past three days… no good. 4) i think this mole on my arm looks bigger than it was before…? 5) skin totally broke out earlier this week from a new product....
➸ fly away now.
i’m not really sure when exactly it happened, but something changed my mindset with this whole thing that i’m finally satisfied about. i struggled with it for so long… i knew what i needed to do but i just couldn’t do it. and when i finally decided to give it a rest, it clicked. i’m here. i can walk away and safely say i laid it all down and i don’t need to...
6:17AM text on my phone: Alerts - Snow closure The Burnaby campus is closed today due to snow. Classes are cancelled.
SEVEN THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM: 1. A ton of books and magazines. 2. Clothes. Usually in a varying state of disarray — in closet, on chair or floor. 3. Uh… nail polish? 4. A mug of tea/water/coffee on my desk. 5. Post-its! 6. Music playing. 7. muhh comfy bed. (: SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT: 1. Not to get technical with you… but food would be a good start....